Monday, January 23, 2012

Why today?


Why Today?
Knowing that something has to be done is one thing.  Knowing what you believe in your heart to be the right way to do it is another.  Starting it is a whole different story.  I know I need to release weight.  I believe that eating low carb/low sugar is the way for my body to do that.  Yet starting is a whole new story. 
Ready or not, here I go. 
Today I start claiming my body.  Not the body I have had for many, many years, but the body I know is my right to have.  Strong, healthy, and vibrant.   So, if I know this and feel this, why am I scared?  Why am I nervous?  For me, I am scared to death of another failure.  I have, like so many, lost weight only to regain it back.  Granted, I have never  been able to meet a goal weight, or even come close really.   The thought of releasing 100 pounds is so overwhelming.  So I have decided I am NOT going to lose 100 pounds, I am going to lose 10 pounds...10 times.  Sure, it is semantics...but this is my journey, so I can play that game with myself if I want, lol!
So, why today?  Long story short, it is my Dad's birthday today.  My Dad would have been 63 today.  He died almost 3 years ago of Lung Cancer.  Lung Cancer that he developed by smoking excessively for many years.  I could never understand why he couldn't just STOP smoking.  I mean, he knew all the risks, he saw his Mom die due to complications of smoking.  Why were cigarettes more important than his family he was surely going to leave behind?  It was his addiction.  Then it hit me.  My weight is the same as his cigarettes.  It will surely cause as much damage to my body.  It will surely shorten my life, taking time away from my family.  Plain and simple, I do not want my children to see me like that. I do not want my children asking why I can't just STOP.  I do not want my children to lose me so young. I do not want my children to have to figure out who is going to have to take care of me. I WANT to see my kids grow up and grow old. I WANT to be involved in my grandkids lives. I WANT to live a long and healthy life for them and for me. This is a disease I am going to have to fight every day. That is how I have to view it. Same as a nicotine, or a drug, or an alcohol additiction. I will never be cured. Even at my goal weight, I will have to fight the obesity disease EVERYDAY.
Starting today.  On my Dad's birthday.  As a reminder of what lies ahead of me if I do not take care of my body.  As a reminder of those I stand to hurt beside myself.
Starting today, starting right now...

14 comments:

  1. Awesome 1st post...looking forward to your journey...

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    1. Thanks Stacy! I am looking forward to having you share in my journey (((hugs)))

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  2. Good luck. Take one day at a time. One meal at a time.

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    1. Thanks Serena...I think that is how you have to do it. Thank you for stopping by! (((hugs)))

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  3. Today is a good day because it will always be easy to remember the day that you started this journey! You will do great, as long as you never give up!
    Safe travels:)

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    1. Thank you Kay! The day will be easy to remember for sure, it also helps remind me of why I am doing it. Thanks for stopping by! (((hugs)))

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  4. What a great day to start. I am proud of you and I know its a bit scary - but you can do it girl!!
    I will add your blog to my list and get some people over here to cheer you on.
    Have a great day :-)

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    1. Thanks so much Rosalie! You have been such an inspiration and source of support already! (((hugs)))

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  5. You're off to a great start and doing great with your blog. I can never seem to get a blog going so I'll just live my blog life thru you and Rosalie..lol

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  6. Also, I think you and I are close to the same in numbers and our goals.. I was 247, right now 210, with a goal of 150. God only knows how long it will take but I'm not giving up this time, no matter what.

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    1. Thanks so much Sandi! It has been fun chatting with you and I look forward to this journey! (((hugs)))

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  7. Oh wow! How exciting! Looking forward to following your journey!

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  8. Looking forward to following you on here and on the fb group! I have started many blogs but don't maintain them. Maybe I should with this new diet. I am starting fresh tomorrow, it's 2/1/12 and I AM GOING TO LOSE 10 LBS in Feb or more, that's my goal!! :)

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    1. How are you doing with your goal Sarah?

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