So, I have a confessional for you today that is also me thinking out loud...sometimes that is just what I need to do to process.
~ First off, some exciting news that has been taking up SO much time for me lately. We are building a house! We began looking at builders and neighborhoods a few months after we moved to Austin. It took us a long time, but after seeing EVERYTHING in the 20 miles radius we wanted to be in, we made our choice and put a contract in November. They broke ground in January and poured a foundation...then it seemed to stall a bit. Now they have gone CRAZY and in a matter of a week, the house is almost framed! This is such an emotional roller coaster, lol! I feel like I am birthing a baby. I see hiccups along the way and get totally freaked out, then see they got the issues fixed and feel silly for freaking out in the first place. And yes, I am totally stalking the place. I am out at the site at least 3 times a day. We are set to close the beginning of May, which isn't as far off as it sounds. I will just be SO happy to be settled....this will be our 4th move in less than 4 years, but thankfully, it should be our last for at least 20.
Here is where we were at as of Monday:
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~I loathe the PTA. Seriously, the PTA women make me bat-shit crazy. I am VERY anti-fundraising. I do not allow my children to go door to door asking for money. I will not allow them to call friends and family and ask them to buy stupid-ass stuff so they can "win" a light-up bouncy ball. The PTA fundraising EVERY FREAKING MONTH makes me want to stab my eyes out. I know they say it is so important and all the money is going to such worth while causes, but come on! Enough already. Plus, they have no wine at the meetings. And come on, if they are forcing us to sit in tables and chairs 20 sizes too small listening to the masterminds figure out how they are going to make everyone else do all the grunt work, the least they can do is provide wine.
~This year is my 20th high school reunion. I am not even sure how that is remotely possible. Didn't I just get out of college?? I mean, sure I have the kids, gray hair, and wrinkles to prove otherwise, but really?! I am not even sure how that happened. I was all gung-ho about going back to Colorado to attend this summer, but now I am re-thinking. I mean, in my class of a whopping 32 people, most of them are on my Facebook so I know what they look like and what they are doing. Besides, I am pretty sure most of them are PTA Mamas.
~I change my hair color a LOT. The hubs loves it (I think) because he gets to sleep with a blond, brunette, and red-head all in one year. Currently, I went red with blond streaks. But now, I think I am itching to go dark or maybe ombre-ish. Anyway, here is what it looks like now.
|Me and the Hubs|
~For the 2nd year in a row, after cutting sugars out so severely, I have got sick as a dog. Not the detox kind of sick, but my immune system crashes and I am sick-sick-sick. Being an intuitive person, something about this isn't right for me. While I know and believe processed sugars are bad and sugars are hidden in everything, I don't know if I can get on board with the fruit being too much sugar and too much of certain veggies are too much sugar thing. Fruit juice, yes. Whole fruit, no. I am re-thinking, re-examining, and re-tooling what I am doing. I know I feel better without grains and processed sugars, but I think I may try doing clean-eating and paleo-ish for a while. I get so frustrated when I feel like I am being deprived when what I want is a freaking apple. I want to eat whole food, fresh food, healthy food. And if that involves a banana in my smoothie, then so be it. I have learned a TON from BFC/Paleo/Low Carb groups that I completely plan on integrating into my eating plan, so I am really thankful for that.
~I have not weighed in since my second re-duex week. I tend to get all obsessive and critical when I weigh in every week. I am going to take a break from the scale and weigh in once a month. I think a body (especially a womans body) is in such continual flux, you can't get a true picture everyday or every week as to what is going on. Now I know I have regained some of that initial false belly fat loss, but I just feel better knowing that these are changes I can truly live with for the rest of my life.
So, that is all I have for now :)
I hope you are all having a super fabulous week so far!
MUCH love - xoxo